(1968 )

January. 1.68

The atmosphere is full of peace as on every 1st of the New Year.

I prayed to Her for New Progress and Peace and Divine Joy.

January .3.68

I never like to be in the world organised by Human beings. I always renounce it from heart.

I would like to exist in the world, in the kingdom formed and governed by the Divine.

I felt the forceful vibrations that she is most, most happy to read.

Sweet Mother Blessed me.

January.9.68

FLOWERS :

God Head; Grace; Roses.

Her grace Her love is illimitable.

I remain Her humble child at Her Lotus feet.

I adore the flowers full of Her force, Her Love.

January.11.68

FLOWERS

God head; Grace; Rose

Merciful, Sweet Mother -

She showers Her grace and Her Love. Flowers conveyed what she sent.

I feel fortunate child to have loving flowers from Her.

January. 17.68

FLOWERS :

God head; Grace; Roses; Aspiration in the physical.

My heart yearns more and more to look at the flowers.

They radiate joy of Divine.

January.24.68

FLOWERS :

God head; Grace; Roses; Skill in work.

I pray to Her to make me Her worthy child.

January.25.68

FLOWERS;

God- head; Grace; Roses and Blessings.

There is only 1 tree in the Ashram of flowers named "Blessings".

Today, It is the first time that She sent me this flowers of "Blessings."

I feel the life is worth - Divine Blessed me with "Love".

January. 29.68

FLOWERS:

Grace; God- head; Rose; Supramental psychological Perfection.

February. 14.68

FLOWERS:

Roses; God- head; Simplicity; New -Birth.

February. 18.68

I write Prayers : She sends only flowers. They carry special significance.

I pray to remain Her servant at Her Lotus feet.

February.21.68

FLOWERS :

God - head; Roses.

Today the atmosphere is full of joy and happiness because of Her birthday.

I sent to Her a card and flowers.

She received them with Love.

To day to my surprise, there is a packet of chocolates of nine pieces.

I remain so happy throughout the day I cannot explain in words.

April. 6.68

FLOWERS :

God head; Roses; New creation.

The flowers radiate cheerful atmosphere.

They stimulate me for progress. This is all Her grace.

April.7.68

FLOWERS :

Supramental psychological perfection; God head; Roses

The flowers convey Her message. I remain Her humble child at Her feet.

May.24.68

FLOWERS :

A bouque of flowers - All white flowers.

Today, I went to the Mother as She had named me Dwijata. Today I used to celebrate as my spiritual birth-day.

When I went to Her. She was very happy to receive me.

I had my Pranam. She blessed me. After that She said, "You are having very piercing eyes - It is very good."

She gave card with the Lord's card and a bouque of beautiful white flowers. All the flowers were white.

While giving the bouque, She said, "You are this". She was very happy to Bless me with the bouque.

The whole day I was in deep peace and so overjoyed that I could not express my joy in words.

The bouque carried special significance for me. This is all unbelievable and inexpressible. The white bouque meant Purity. I can only say that this was all Her special grace that cannot be explained.

May.27.68

FLOWERS:

Purity; God head; Roses.

June. 3.68

FLOWERS:

God head; Purity; Roses.

I pray to make me Her worthy child.

FLOWERS:

June.10.68

New creation; Roses; God head

I pray to protect me and have mercy.

She is all mighty, all merciful.

June.12.68

FLOWERS :

Purity; Roses; God head.

Now-a-days she sends flowers with purity also.

She knows everything and she looks after Her pure innocent child.

June.14.68

FLOWERS:

Godhead; Roses; Purity

I am incapable child as all human beings are.

She pours Her Love Her grace and Her strength.

She is universal Mother.

June.16.68

FLOWERS :

Godhead; Purity; Roses.

Godhead signifies Divine consciousness. She blesses for Divine consciousness.

It is an exceptional fortune that She blesses with all Her Love.

June. 18.68

FLOWERS:

Godhead; Roses; Aspiration in the physical; Purity.

I adore the flowers. I am so happy to receive the flowers. They keep me cheerful throughout the day.

I aspire to remain Her sincere child.

June.21.68

FLOWERS:

Godhead; Purity; Rose; Yellow. .

The flowers radiate Divine atmosphere.

I yearn for Her love.... the heart yearns and yearns f~ Her love alone.

June.23.68

FLOWERS :

New creation; Roses; Purity; Godhead.

June.26.68

FLOWERS :

Godhead; Purity; Roses.

June.27.68

FLOWERS :

Godhead; Purity; Roses.

It is all Her grace that she takes care of everything and she blesses for spiritual progress.

June.28.68

FLOWERS:

Roses; Purity; Rose of Love.

Today I sent the garland of jasmine flowers, white garland.

I love the garland of Jasmine flowers She accepted it with so much of Love... The pretty rose of love viberates Her love.

July.1.68

FLOWERS :

Adoration; Physical Aspiration- (Red-bunch); Attachment to the Divine (purple); Resolution; A bunch of protection.

To day I found change in flowers. The flowers represent special significance.

I am thrilled to have the flower of attachment to the Divine. I feel delighted to look at this flower and for some time even get lost.

I pray from my heart to be attached to Her only.

For ever and ever my heart crave for Her love only.....

July.3.68

FLOWERS:

Purity; Red- rose; Peace (Roses) mental prayers.

I remain indrawn.

O ! Lord ! Your creation is unfathomable.

July.5.68

FLOWERS :

New creation; Godhead; Rose (Yellow) O Lord!

Whatever you will is done. Unknown are your ways.

Even a leaf cannot move if it is not the will of the Divine.

July.7.68

FLOWERS:

Roses.

She showers Her love.

I pray that I remain at Her lotus feet in whatever way She Wills.

July. 11.68

FLOWERS :

Rose; Attachment to the Divine.

It is Her grace that protects me and guides me throughout.

The love of Divine is eternal and everything else is temporary.

July. 14.68

FLOWERS :

Grace; Rose; Immortality; Silence.

Everything is possible for Her grace. She fulfills all the hopes. All the wishes are granted as nothing is impossible for Her grace.

She Blesses for silence and immortality. Her kindness is beyond imagination.

July. 17.68

FLOWERS:

Rose (Red); Parity; Aspiration in the physical (Pychic Love) The lovely flowers viberate Her love, Her peace.

They give joy of inner communion. They give such Joy which cannot be expressed.

July. 19.68

FLOWERS :

Rose; Lily; Purity.

There is no loneliness as the flowers surrounded me with Her Love.

July.21.68

FLOWERS :

Sincerity; (Vital sincerity -Violet colour); Purity; Rose (Pychic love)

Today I sent to Her flowers of : Divine Love; Silence & victory.

I pray that I remain Her sincere and humble child at Her Divine feet.

July .23.68

FLOWERS :

Red Rose; Peace; Purity; god head.

I am innocent ignorant child knowing little things of worldly matters. I really depend entirely on Her.

She forgives everything and She takes full care of Her child.

July.25.68

FLOWERS :

One red rose; One yellow rose; Godhead; Purity.

To day I had sent the flowers : Immortality; devotion; Psychological perfection.

The prayers of my heart :

My love to you is immortal.

My devotion is immortal

I be like a flower Rose at your lotus

feet unfading and spreading fragrance eternally.

July.26.68

FLOWERS :

A bunch of Purity; One rose; One violet rose; One yellow rose

I am overjoyed to have the flowers with bunch of purity. The bunch radiated beautiful, holy atmosphere.

I felt that the bunch was identity of my heart - pure heart. They spread the vibrations that She is very happy that Her

child is pure, pious, transparent. For a long time I was lost. I was in different world. I cannot express. I felt Her living presence. The bunch was so dear to me I could not part from it for long time

July.27.68

Today I sat near Samadhi for long.

I aspire to have peace -deep peace.

July.28.68

All powerful Mother,

All merciful Mother,

All gracious Mother,

All loving Mother,

Your glory is unfathomable.

Your little child aspire to be at your lotus feet only.

July.29.68

FLOWERS :

Pychic prayers, Red Rose; Peace; Purity; Supramental psychological perfection.

I pray that :

Make me conscious of Divine and Divine everywhere.

August.14.68

FLOWERS :

Aspiration in the physical; One red rose; One pink rose; Purity.

Merciful Lord ! Merciful Mother !

Human beings are not capable to understand your power. Your generosity gives and gives and gives. Not a single moment passes that you have not given.

August.15.68

FLOWERS :

Purity; Protection; One red rose; One pink rose.

Today it is Darshan day. The atmosphere is full of peace and joy.

On this auspicious day I pray to Lord Sri Aurobindo that I be a worthy child at His feet. He is omniscient. He is omnipotent. He is omnipresent.

August.18.68

FLOWERS :

One red rose; one pink rose; purity.

Divine Gracious Mother !

Your merits are countless! Your

Divine actions are countless !

The flowers radiate your eternal Love.

I feel incapable but your love showers.

August.20.68

FLOWERS :

Purity; One red rose; One pink rose;

Obedience; God head; Yellow rose.

The flowers create beautiful atmosphere I feel Mother -

I am yours and Yours for ever.

September.9.68

FLOWERS :

New Birth; Mental Sincerety; Devotion; Roses; Sweet thoughts.

To day I sent to Her flowers of Radha's prayers and the flowers of Divine love.

The flowers of New Birth fascinated me. New loving atmosphere pervades all around.

Every time I look and adore the flowers, I become new. They are expressive for me of my inner which can be done only by Divine.

September. 10.68

FLOWERS :

White Roses; Pink Roses; New Birth; Harmony;

Omniscient Mother,

Omnipotent Mother,

I pray that I be your worthy child.

Every time I look and adore the flowers, I become New. They are expressive focus of my inner which can be done only by Divine.

November. 24.68

Today It is Darshan day. As usual there is happy atmosphere.

I sat near Samadhi. There is special force and peace near Samadhi. It is as if

He is blessings His children.

In the evening She gave Darshan. There was complete silence while She gave Darshan. Peace and silence All were happy to have Darshan.

In the evening I sat near Samadhi and felt deep peace.... peace...deep peace...

December. 5.68

Today is the day when He left his body.

All meditated near Samadhi.

I offer lotus on Samadhi, There is peace very peaceful atmosphere.

December.9.68

I offered Lotus on Samadhi, and prayed

He is here to Bless his children.

December.25.68

To day it is my Birthday. It is all full anxiety to go for Her Darshan.

She received me with Love. She blessed me .and gave a card and flowers.

Throughout the day I remained happy and full of joy. There is Anand which is inexpressible.

Divine Mother is so Gracious.

January.1.69

Today The new year starts.

All over there is Special joy to welcome the new year.

I meditated near Samadhi.

I prayed to pour His Grace and to guide me throughout the year.

New year message was distributed to all.

I continued to dance. I used to practise a lot. I enjoyed to practise so much so that sometimes my teacher scolded me to stop it. But I felt happy within whenever I practised a lot.

Sweet Mother was always very happy that I practise dancing. She always blessed me.

February.21.69

Today it is the birthday of Sweet Mother.

The atmosphere is luminious lively with different special joy-special Anand.

I sent Beautiful flowers to Her.

She is mother and when Her children are happily celebrating Her birthday, pours Her Love and Grace to all Her children.

May .24.69

Today it is my Spiritual Birthday.

I am full of anxiety to go to Her.

I offered flowers when I went to Her. She Blessed me. It is as if to go to heaven. She is Blissful.

My heart is full of joy. I feel new

The consciousness is filled with different deep peace. I remained peaceful and happy the whole day.

I sat near Samadhi. I prayed to Bless me. that I remain Her humble child at His feet.

I concentrated fully in drawing and painting. I enjoyed fabric painting and I worked for hours on it.

August.15.69

It is auspicious day Today.

All are full of joy and enthusiastic to celebrate the birthday of the Lord.

I offered flowers specially Lotus at Samadhi and prayed to Him to guide me to my goal.

Almost the whole day I sat near Samadhi. I did not feel like leaving Samadhi so Blissful- I cannot express.

He is Eternal. He is the supreme controller.

The next day I offered White flowers and sat near Samadhi.

It is all so pleasant so peaceful- all so pure.

Almost the whole day I sat near Samadhi.